Sunday, March 21, 2010

Transformation complete

I am happy to say that I finally think my transformation is complete.

I love my new glasses.
I love my new hair.
I love my new clothes.
I love my new look.
I love my new outlook on life.
I love my new feelings.

I love the new me.

Hey, I probably look like a hipster. But at least I'm a cool hipster.
Oh yeahhh.

I just got done recording a super rough acoustic demo for a song I wrote back in January (I think?). It's called "Echo" and since it's one of the only original songs I have, it will most likely be going on my EP that I hope to release this summer.

Well that's about it.

Sheesh, my blog posts are a whole lot less interesting when I'm not depressed. Oh well, I don't mind the trade off haha. :P

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Squish

I am just so...I don't know...GREAT right now.

I'm finally to the point where my day could totally suck, but I'd still feel happy. I've never felt like that before, and it's ridiculous. What else have I been missing out on my whole life?

To anyone reading this, seriously, just be everything you can be. Don't let anyone make you feel like you're a piece of sh*t. Don't let anyone make you feel like you aren't good enough for them. Forget and just don't care. Forget and don't slow down.

Forget and don't slow down, because before you know it, the stuff that's behind you will be as insignificant as a little bug that's about to be squished. Overcome the past. Squish it. Squish it and make it wish it'd never crossed your path.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

It's crazy

I've had many a good time these past few days. (Is that how you'd say that? Psh, yyyeah, I don't care).

First of all, I had an epiphany after Alyssa suggested I watch this episode of How I Met Your Mother.
http://www.cbs.com/primetime/how_i_met_your_mother/video/


But yeah, anyway, moving on!

This past weekend was pretty much the best days I've ever had in...ever. I honestly didn't think it was possible for me to have so much fun and feel so accepted. I didn't think I could genuinely smile and laugh so much. I didn't think it was possible for me to actually be NOT awkward for an extended period of time. And I learned how to lay low just the right amount as to be neither too unsocial (looking like an emo) nor too social (being annoying). It worked out quite fantastically.

And I just think it's crazy that there are all these awesome people who I went to high school with but never really talked to or gotten to be friends with until now. I'm grateful that so many Chesterton kids go to the same college as me. It makes things so much more fun, simple, and awesome. It's crazy how I was never close to people who were so close (distance-wise).

So now, all I need to do is keep it cool, and wait for things to evolve (and I'm not talkin' Pokemon). I'm excited.

Also, this is the last week of school before spring break, hollaaaa!

No, I'm not gangster. I'll leave that to Mike and Hayley. (And that's not meant to be sarcastic. It's just meant to be funny lolol love you).

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Simple life

It's midnight, and I've been sitting here bored out of my mind for the past two hours. But then I realized...I CAN BLOG!

Hm, well today was surprisingly good. I got a new phone and new glasses. All that's left now is new hair and new clothes, and my transformation will be complete. *Evil laughter*

Anyways, things are relatively good except for my classes. I honestly think I have ADD because I literally cannot concentrate on anything for more than 10 seconds. It's a real problem in my philosophy and history lectures, because I have to take notes. And to top it all off, my Japanese class is kicking my butt and I hate it. It's gotten to the point where I'm considering changing my major. But seeing as how I'm not good at anything, my considerations haven't really gotten far.

Which is why I think it is scientifically impossible for the two major aspects of my life to be good at the same time. Social life/friends=good. School=bad. It was the opposite last semester. And I guess maybe the two are correlated sort of in some way, but whatever. All I know is that I do not know. (Some famous philosopher said that right? See, I need to pay more attention in philosophy class...)

But anyways, who cares about that? You guys came here to hear some deep, realization stuff. And so I shall provide.

More and more, I'm starting to realize that things are only as complicated as we make them or how we choose to see them. I realized that I don't want things to be complicated. I just want things to be simple. I want to like someone, and have them like me, and us be together. Simple as that. I don't want to have to second guess myself every single day, wondering and worrying if I'm going to make the right decision. Worrying makes me depressed, angry, and sad, and I just don't need that. I've had enough of those emotions these past 4 months and I don't want to get myself into any more situations like that. Can't I just live a simple life? Can't I just be with someone who is here with me?

We shall see.