Technical woes

As I am currently quite frustrated with technology, the atmosphere of this post might be quite bitter, cynical, and frustrated. You know, the fun stuff. (But when am I not bitter, cynical, and frustrated?)

(Although, I'm listening to one of Raven Zoe's songs right now, and it's kind of calming me. BUT STILL. I'll just wait until the song is over, and resume my sour mood.)

....

Hm, yeah, I'm going to have to buy her EP.

Okay, anyways, MOVING ON!

Elaborating on my technology woes... when I was home on Saturday, I literally spent the entire day recording a song and editing together a video for it to put up on YouTube. First, MPEG Streamclip wouldn't cooperate. It kept squishing my videos. After many facepalms and frustrated sighs, I got it to work. I felt quite accomplished.

Then I opened up FinalCut Express, and I was having just a grand ol' time editing together everything. Seriously, I'm not being sarcastic. I love editing stuff together. It makes me feel smart. So when I was done, I exported it and everything seemed dandy. Then I opened up Quicktime just for one last watch before I uploaded it. And I almost threw my computer across the room.



It's probably hard to tell from the picture, but... the video is supposed to be in 16:9 (because my camera is HD), but FinalCut Express PUT IT IN 4:3 SO NOW EVERYTHING IS STRETCHED OUT AND HAS THE STUPID BLACK LETTERBOXES.

I looked everywhere for a solution. I couldn't find it. I scoured Google and YouTube, hoping something could help me. But nothing. I couldn't find anything.

I gave up. A few minutes ago, I deleted FinalCut Express from my computer, and am now currently downloading it again.

I think this current struggle with computers reflects my life in a way.

I'm looking everywhere and asking everyone I can for a solution. I can't find one. No matter how hard I look, there isn't going to be one. I am in control of how I feel, even though it doesn't really feel that way right now. There's no solution. So I'm giving up on trying to feel anything for anyone. My heart will eventually freeze over, be locked up, and be bolted down.

And there's nothing I can do. Unlike computer programs, I can't just delete, re-download, and re-install. No matter how mechanical and robotic I may become later on, it'll never be true.